its this feeling of euphoria that overwhelms the whole of me. its the feeling i get after spending three hours slashing my grass in the hot african sun and then tumbling into my freezing shower sweaty and exhausted. its the feeling i get when there are 30 kids taking a bath in my house and soap and water is flying EVERYWHERE. its the feeling i get when i am woken up at six am by being jumped on by three beautiful girls who call me mom. its the feeling i get after a long and usually hilarious morning of teaching kindergarten as i begin the three mile walk home, sticky with porridge and covered in chalk dust. its the feeling i get when i pour out every ounce of love and passion in my small self and, miraculously, the Lord fills me right back up again. it takes control and makes me want to dance down the road and sing and the top of my lungs and run a thousand miles. it makes me laugh uncontrollably and it makes my whole body shake and my arms get covered in goose bumps. it isnt just happiness. it is this elation that only comes from the Lord. and in these moments, no matter how breif, i believe that i know just a little of what Heaven must be. and it is better that any pleasure that comes from this world. it makes me want to be a better person, to give all of myself to the Lord, because there is no better feeling than this basking in His presence. i want to stay forever wrapped in His arms.
and these moments, these little glimpses of something better and higher than the world that we live in keep my face smiling, my eyes shining and my heart dancing in my chest. it will keep me pouring out every ounce of everything that i have because there is no better blessing than the opportunity to give yourself away.