Saturday, October 20, 2007

sometimes, im walking down these brown streets surrounded by all these brown people, and i just cant believe that I LIVE HERE; this is my life.

sometimes, i see all the street children as i walk down the streets and i want to pick up every single one of them. take them home and feed them and clothe them and love them. there are so many, too many.

sometimes, i cant believe the magnitude of people that need help. people I could help, but how do i choose? in a country where millions of children are starving, how do i decide which ones to feed?

ALWAYS, i know that i know that i know that i am here because God put me here, that i am serving His purpose, and that i am changing the world for His glory. i wouldnt trade that for anything.

ive been praying a lot lately about starting this organization. i sometimes feel like i am drowning in work that i just dont know how to do. beginning this also means that, for sure, a good part of my life will be spent right here in uganda. but that is what i want, because i KNOW that this is what God wants. so i do this work. i do this work this i dont know anything about, that is complicated and confusing, this work that i dont yet even have the money to do, with excitement and enthusiasm. and i know that there is nothing i would rather do.

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity

I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'till I try, I'll never know...

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky
As someone told me lately -
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me -

Tell them how I
Am defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And nothing's gonna bring me down..
-Elphaba (that was for my girls)


Brenda said...

Ahhh, Katie! I don't know how you are going to do what you want to do....but God knows. If it is to be, He will help you do it and show you what to do. I pray for your health and safety, (your spirit always sounds just fine!) May God surround you with His Angels. Lovingly, Brenda
Love the poem!

Anonymous said...

katteeee..i sinnggg all the way home from knoxville everytime i go back and think of you.. i love you sooo much and i have been praying for you!!! Keep you chin up baby girl .. the world is God's snowglobe.. he will take care of you!!

Myrna Synesael said...

Katie, Just wanted you to know how much I am enjoying your "Journey".
Stay safe and God bless you in your work. Love Myrna

BSD said...

Hi Kate. Your favorite time of the year is upon us. If they celebrate Halloween in Uganda, your kids are inf for a treat!! Love you. Dad

mama emilie said...

Katie, I can't help but think of the Halloween party you planned when I was visiting. You were just a little girl but all the neighors joined in & had a wonderful time. You've always been an organizer. All my love & hugs!

Grandma Joyce

Joyful Le said...

hehehe yay Elphaba!!! :)
I've seen that play 4 times and that song will have new meaning from now on! :)

kud said...

Today I completed my last project at my job before I officially leave in 2-3 weeks. I stumbled upon your blog and of all the things to read..your poem! You said it all for me. I too am going to Africa, where I too believe God wants me. You have a new follower in me. God bless you.