she called me mommy.
my heart swelled up into my throat. i have only known these little people 4 days and i feel a love for them that is different than my love for anyone else. this is love that wants to protect, and comfort and take away all pain. this is a love that consumes my every move. she called me mommy.
our God is a God of miracles. about an hour ago, my oldest daughter was discharged from the hospital with the diagnosis of a broken collar bone and some soft tissue damage. of all things that could have happened to her (she was under a brick wall for goodness sake!) she has only these injuries, both of which will heal just fine with some time and care. tonight she will spend her first night with her sisters at my house. unfortunately, my bed was crammed enough last night with only my self and two of my girls in it, there is no way all three of us will fit in there. so they will sleep in their very own room across the hall. today after church we went out to lunch and scovia and maria tasted ice cream for the first time. the faces they made were priceless; i guess they didnt expect it to be so cold. they also discovered the joy of the bathtub a few days ago, and i think they have taken about twenty baths since they have moved in.
maybe i will never sleep past seven in the morning and maybe i will never have time to brush my hair and maybe i will never be able to eat a full meal without getting up and down a million times. its worth it. maybe it will always take me twice as long to do everything and maybe i will never have a really clean house and maybe my days of staying out late with friends are over. its worth it. anything i have to give up is worth just that one minute when they look at me and call me mom, when those little hands grab mine and those big eyes look at me as if i hold the keys to the world. its worth it.
sometimes i dont know what God i doing in my life or why. but every day His plan is better than mine. and every day i am just so glad that He is in charge, not me!
2 comments:
Katie:
Holy Cow! We'll have to call you Mother Katie instead of Auntie Katie. You are having a year to remember aren't you? How does it feel making decisions completely based on faith? That is the way God wants us to live: praying unceasingly and doing His work day after day. Congratulations on being a Mother! Lynn and I tell our pregnant friends that being a parent is twice as hard and twice as rewarding as you will ever imagine. In your case it will be three times as rewarding. Maybe the care package that we sent for Christmas will be there for Mother's Day? That would be appropriate.
May God give you strength and continue to show you his blessings.
Darryl Thompson
Hi Katie.
A good friend of mine, Julie Durkee, pointed me in the direction of your blog a few weeks ago. I am so encouraged and amazed by the way God is working through you in Jinja. Your willingness, not only to listen to God, but to act on it, is so evident. I have been checking your blog very regularly in the last few weeks, and am excited when I can get a little glimpse further into life there. Oh yeah - I'll be spending a couple months in uganda this summer. I can't wait. You are definitely in my prayers.
peace.
sarah guerrie.
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